Let me just make a list.

1) We'll probably have to move into an apartment, and if we do, which one and what the hell are we going to do with all the shit at my house? On top of that, what are we going to do with the dog?

2) I surrounded myself with the exact type of people I hate and in that I lost the people I could trust telling anything to. "I don't need one person, I have everyone else" not really because everyone else is just as stupid. Excluding about 3 people.

3) I'm starting to resent trying to have a relationship. With anyone.

4) I'm upset and I need someone but I'm too emotionally brick walled to admit it outside of this damn website.

5) Just like my mood icon depicts, I'm defeated. I can't "Save the Bolt". The emotionally clean Cody W. Evans has been murdered brutally by the world he set up for himself.